saying goodbye

countdown until i leave jersey.......6 days
so today i learned that the hardest thing to do every is to say goodbye to somebody you love.
first of all let me reiterate what i did last night:
i hosted an awesome party for all of my close friends and family AOUWWW
my bestie, josh, who is a total stud/cutie/omghisvoicemakesmedie person, and my girl-friends all thought he was a HOTTIE... they couldnt believe why he and i havent done anything because he is totally into me [but not single :(]
anywhosss
it was an awesome time, one that ill never forget becauseee i was surrounded by all my friends and everyone i love, and they all just gave off such a positive vibe.  but i really do love them:
gina<3
natalie<3
sara<3
chrissy<3
mary<3
mackenzie<3
josh<3
graham<3
and many othersss!!!
but like i said saying goodbye is HARD.
Thats what i did at church today..
i said goodbye to my best friend mackenzie, who btws is someone ill see everyday at school this coming week, but we both just started crying in eachothers arms.  i have never seen her cry before, and let me tell you, i dont want to see it ever again.  ohmigod it made me soo sad inside, because moments before she had been saying how my moving to CALIFORNIA hadnt hit her yet, so she hadnt been too torn-up over it...YET.
i have no idea what im gonna do w/o her.  she knows my entire life and LOVES IT, almost as much as i LOVE HER.
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josh just texted me...he said i was HOTT!!!!
iurehmxw, eeeeeeeeeee
they invited me to his hot tub whenever i come back....same for grahams family MUUUHAHAHAHAHA....aahhhhh goodtimes in the hotubs/pools/spass ;)
anyways i need to go pack...my mothers throwing a fit and argggg i love you babies:
gina<3

natalie<3

sara<3

chrissy<3

mary<3

mackenzie<3

josh<3

graham<3...so very much :_ _ _(...ahhhh struggles